Where have all the exes gone?

As I have looked forward to writing the past few days, it didn’t actually occur to me to write about past love interests and relationships. However, this is where my mind wandered this morning. Not so much to the people, themselves, but to this idea….that they are not currently a part of my life forContinue reading “Where have all the exes gone?”

If the sea brings me to it…

(The following was originally written in August 2024, just before a new person entered my life. Reading it now, just over a year later, I am struck by how soon the thing I was seeking here would be realized. It’s a reminder that what you think may become.) Returning from this year’s trip to Spain,Continue reading “If the sea brings me to it…”

Everything and nothing…

(The following was originally written over two years ago in the spring of 2023. I share it now with the acceptance that not every post has to feel complete or perfect. Maybe it’s thoughts and words that went nowhere or I didn’t feel fully expressed what I wanted at the time. Or, perhaps I didn’tContinue reading “Everything and nothing…”

I may never know…

My husband passed away over 14 years ago, yet it is the death of something else around three years ago that still has me in strange territory as I write this. Oddly enough, it isn’t some sort of co-dependent obsession, infatuation, unhealthy pattern, desire or anything of the like that’s brought me here. As farContinue reading “I may never know…”

The doors that have opened…

The words that follow were written January 2, 2022. They were written, in part, because I didn’t want to forget certain details about an event in my life. They were also to be the beginning of a story……about the endurance of hope and faith, seeing that in another person, letting go, living in the moment,Continue reading “The doors that have opened…”

The realization of us…

Failure….possibly one of our species’ greatest fears. Knowing that it can lead to the loss and destruction of our self-esteem, sense of worth, status, livelihood and the like, we often tend to avoid it. How do we avoid it? We refrain from taking risks. Maybe we stay in our current job or position because weContinue reading “The realization of us…”

The movement and play…

The impermanence of everything in this world is obvious anywhere one might look, yet we so often believe the unpleasantries of life will continue indefinitely. Why is that? Overall, the human perspective of time is interesting. We live our lives day to day, year to year, often never quite grasping the extent of change thatContinue reading “The movement and play…”

Show me what you’ve got…

Not many weeks ago, I found myself writing about the classic Frankenstein film from the 1930s in one of the chapters of the book I’m working on. In this chapter, I express my early empathy for monsters and outsiders, never thinking I would soon resemble a mad scientist’s creation. Yet, today, this is more orContinue reading “Show me what you’ve got…”

The most beautiful gift…

Cancer is a scary word. Although skin cancer can be less scary, the word melanoma isn’t something anyone wants to hear. Melanoma is the most life threatening of the skin cancers, spreading to lymph nodes and internal organs in as fast as a few weeks. Yesterday, I found out that I have melanoma….on my neck.Continue reading “The most beautiful gift…”

The sound of the cosmos…

Another day, another step back and then forward again. I hadn’t planned to post something today, but here I am. With each moment, it would appear that I am going more and more mad/crazy….or whatever word a person wants to attach to it. Needless to say….there’s been a lot of judgement fired at me. InContinue reading “The sound of the cosmos…”

A glorious moment it is…

Just a quick update before my life gets crazy with work and I have little time to write. The past week has been interesting, to say the least. I believe I have purged more emotionally than I have in months and have put myself out there asking for help. I also have had many thingsContinue reading “A glorious moment it is…”

When we both get there…

Cultivating trust. I used to be so good at it. Yet, at some point, I subconsciously learned that it can lead a person right into years of abuse. When one person has a high level of trust and loyalty, it makes sense to attempt to resolve the fears of someone who doesn’t. However, what happensContinue reading “When we both get there…”

Whatever is strongest in me…

Whatever is strongest and largest in me called to you through the forest at night. I could see the bright color of your coat as you trekked your path in the fog and it seemed that we would never meet. At times, I could hear you so loud and clear that I could almost touchContinue reading “Whatever is strongest in me…”

One foot in another…

It’s a new year and this seems to bring new emotions, habits, and behaviors to the forefront in the days and lives of many individuals. Some welcome the passing of time and chance to start anew with open arms. Maybe 2022 was a rough year and this one will be better. Or maybe…..another year meansContinue reading “One foot in another…”

If I can cross a creek…

Wow….what a couple of months it’s been. Not only did I finally come to a good place again from which to date and entertain the possibility of a relationship, I met someone new and enjoyed some fun moments visiting museums, taking photos, sharing food, and overall playing like a kid. I emerged from the fog,Continue reading “If I can cross a creek…”