The most beautiful gift…

Cancer is a scary word. Although skin cancer can be less scary, the word melanoma isn’t something anyone wants to hear. Melanoma is the most life threatening of the skin cancers, spreading to lymph nodes and internal organs in as fast as a few weeks. Yesterday, I found out that I have melanoma….on my neck.Continue reading “The most beautiful gift…”

The sound of the cosmos…

Another day, another step back and then forward again. I hadn’t planned to post something today, but here I am. With each moment, it would appear that I am going more and more mad/crazy….or whatever word a person wants to attach to it. Needless to say….there’s been a lot of judgement fired at me. InContinue reading “The sound of the cosmos…”

A glorious moment it is…

Just a quick update before my life gets crazy with work and I have little time to write. The past week has been interesting, to say the least. I believe I have purged more emotionally than I have in months and have put myself out there asking for help. I also have had many thingsContinue reading “A glorious moment it is…”

When we both get there…

Cultivating trust. I used to be so good at it. Yet, at some point, I subconsciously learned that it can lead a person right into years of abuse. When one person has a high level of trust and loyalty, it makes sense to attempt to resolve the fears of someone who doesn’t. However, what happensContinue reading “When we both get there…”

One foot in another…

It’s a new year and this seems to bring new emotions, habits, and behaviors to the forefront in the days and lives of many individuals. Some welcome the passing of time and chance to start anew with open arms. Maybe 2022 was a rough year and this one will be better. Or maybe…..another year meansContinue reading “One foot in another…”

If I can cross a creek…

Wow….what a couple of months it’s been. Not only did I finally come to a good place again from which to date and entertain the possibility of a relationship, I met someone new and enjoyed some fun moments visiting museums, taking photos, sharing food, and overall playing like a kid. I emerged from the fog,Continue reading “If I can cross a creek…”

The beauty I see…

Sitting in a warm coffee shop, snow flakes descending in white fury outside a nearby window, and I’m thinking it may be time to re-emerge from my brief writing hiatus. The past few weeks have been, in part, about moving on…..but also about returning. The return, in fact, has been both literal and figurative….returning toContinue reading “The beauty I see…”

This is why I’m afraid…

Just want to take a minute to thank everyone who has followed my posts and to let you all know that I’m going to be taking a break. I am unsure for how long. As some of you may be aware, I have struggled to let go these past months. I have attempted to turnContinue reading “This is why I’m afraid…”

Call me crazy if you want…

Back from a short trip to Arkansas and trying to decide my next step. More travel? Writing a short book? Going out of my mind for lack of physical intimacy? Perhaps I should apologize to anyone who thought this blog was going to be all “zen”….full of peace, harmony, meditation. Mostly, it’s about expansion….stepping outContinue reading “Call me crazy if you want…”

Not a point to this…

Sometimes, words flow. Sometimes, they don’t. Sometimes, I don’t get to finish a thought due to time constraints. Sometimes, I get caught up in the editing. Sometimes, I drive even myself crazy with the analyzation of the human psyche. All of this has been the case for me the past two weeks or so. IContinue reading “Not a point to this…”

Not my man…

Dear fellow overthinking, analytical, introverts, So, I don’t move you? Is that my fault? Do you think there’s something wrong with me? Well, let me tell you…..maybe I don’t do it for you because YOU don’t move ME. You don’t bring out anything in me and there’s a side of me you will never seeContinue reading “Not my man…”

I just want you to know…

Reaching just under 324 million users in 2021, interest in dating apps has skyrocketed since 2016, according to a quick google search. Despite these numbers, however, another search reports that only half of current singles claim to be looking for a romantic partner. The other half don’t want relationships at all. I look at theseContinue reading “I just want you to know…”

What will you do?

Let’s imagine getting a little house plant and giving it water so that it may grow and flourish.  Now, imagine giving it so much water that you end up drowning it.  Likewise, imagine planting flowers in your yard that love the sun.  You read that they love the sun, but you have a spot inContinue reading “What will you do?”

A whole other world…

When my husband passed away from a self-inflicted gunshot wound in 2010, I was not unfamiliar with loss and grief. Yet, for a period of time after his death, I found myself void of compassion for others experiencing their own loss, grief, and trauma. In fact, it was almost two years before I was ableContinue reading “A whole other world…”

Just as confused…

The truth. I don’t know what that is. I don’t have any answers. I have words and feelings in the moment, which seem to make a mess of things…..because I am, quite simply, unsure about almost everything and everyone. There are no signs or guides. Just a confusing glob of thoughts and feelings tangling upContinue reading “Just as confused…”