A whole other world…

When my husband passed away from a self-inflicted gunshot wound in 2010, I was not unfamiliar with loss and grief. Yet, for a period of time after his death, I found myself void of compassion for others experiencing their own loss, grief, and trauma. In fact, it was almost two years before I was ableContinue reading “A whole other world…”

Just as confused…

The truth. I don’t know what that is. I don’t have any answers. I have words and feelings in the moment, which seem to make a mess of things…..because I am, quite simply, unsure about almost everything and everyone. There are no signs or guides. Just a confusing glob of thoughts and feelings tangling upContinue reading “Just as confused…”

A shared language…and the wonderful state of limbo

I have a friend who’s been sharing music with me for a little over two years. One might even surmise that it’s been the summation of our entire relationship. I write letters and he shares songs he likes or thinks I will like…..and because I noticed early on the emotional impact on me of eachContinue reading “A shared language…and the wonderful state of limbo”

A week in the life…

Wednesday, August 31: Clean and organize living space much of the day, followed by a night at the movies with my mother. Third full day home from a visit with friends in Iowa….trying to ignore invading memories from this time last year. Thursday, September 1: My mother and I shop with my daughter for dressesContinue reading “A week in the life…”

I just got here…

It’s been quiet the past few weeks, observationally speaking. I took a trip to Iowa earlier this month to help friends with their business and expected to be haunted by memories and my closer proximity to the source of many feelings and synchronicities over the past year. I wasn’t. Aside from a turn in DesContinue reading “I just got here…”

When I do…

The messages come in quick succession…..my car audio announcing every single one as my phone receives it. I guess my long-time friend, Andy, finally read my blog post about a tree. That’s nice, I think. I’m on a road trip with no time to respond and it’s just as well. We often go long periodsContinue reading “When I do…”

Lingering in protective white filament…

Fires ablazeApproaching from all aroundWe climb and push throughto meet on the other sideYou wrap me in a sheet of protective white filamentand disappear from sightas I linger in the attempt to escape A woman passes me on the street, issuing a haunting reminder to get out nowI’m on itEven as desperate and soulless figuresContinue reading “Lingering in protective white filament…”

Perhaps another time…

I travel like I’m on cocaine. Not that I have any personal and real experience with drug use, mind you…..but travel is, in itself, like a drug to me. I wake early, run around trying to see and experience everything, and I crash fast and hard at the conclusion of each trip. My use ofContinue reading “Perhaps another time…”

Little Gloria…

In 2021, I sold a 38-foot school bus and (with the proceeds) bought a home-built square-drop camper. It wasn’t too cozy at first, but I had a vision…. and completely transformed the interior. I also added bigger tires and a few decals on the exterior, but the trailer never really made it out of IowaContinue reading “Little Gloria…”

Suddenly and just like that…

A little under a month ago, a friend asked me to meet for coffee….and today, I pick her up in Sacramento for a five-day trek up the Pacific Coast. I feel good about it. After leaving Kings Canyon National Park a day earlier than planned to have my camper inspected (I mistakenly thought I spiedContinue reading “Suddenly and just like that…”