The most beautiful gift…

Cancer is a scary word. Although skin cancer can be less scary, the word melanoma isn’t something anyone wants to hear. Melanoma is the most life threatening of the skin cancers, spreading to lymph nodes and internal organs in as fast as a few weeks. Yesterday, I found out that I have melanoma….on my neck.Continue reading “The most beautiful gift…”

The sound of the cosmos…

Another day, another step back and then forward again. I hadn’t planned to post something today, but here I am. With each moment, it would appear that I am going more and more mad/crazy….or whatever word a person wants to attach to it. Needless to say….there’s been a lot of judgement fired at me. InContinue reading “The sound of the cosmos…”

A glorious moment it is…

Just a quick update before my life gets crazy with work and I have little time to write. The past week has been interesting, to say the least. I believe I have purged more emotionally than I have in months and have put myself out there asking for help. I also have had many thingsContinue reading “A glorious moment it is…”

One foot in another…

It’s a new year and this seems to bring new emotions, habits, and behaviors to the forefront in the days and lives of many individuals. Some welcome the passing of time and chance to start anew with open arms. Maybe 2022 was a rough year and this one will be better. Or maybe…..another year meansContinue reading “One foot in another…”

If I can cross a creek…

Wow….what a couple of months it’s been. Not only did I finally come to a good place again from which to date and entertain the possibility of a relationship, I met someone new and enjoyed some fun moments visiting museums, taking photos, sharing food, and overall playing like a kid. I emerged from the fog,Continue reading “If I can cross a creek…”

The beauty I see…

Sitting in a warm coffee shop, snow flakes descending in white fury outside a nearby window, and I’m thinking it may be time to re-emerge from my brief writing hiatus. The past few weeks have been, in part, about moving on…..but also about returning. The return, in fact, has been both literal and figurative….returning toContinue reading “The beauty I see…”

This is why I’m afraid…

Just want to take a minute to thank everyone who has followed my posts and to let you all know that I’m going to be taking a break. I am unsure for how long. As some of you may be aware, I have struggled to let go these past months. I have attempted to turnContinue reading “This is why I’m afraid…”

Call me crazy if you want…

Back from a short trip to Arkansas and trying to decide my next step. More travel? Writing a short book? Going out of my mind for lack of physical intimacy? Perhaps I should apologize to anyone who thought this blog was going to be all “zen”….full of peace, harmony, meditation. Mostly, it’s about expansion….stepping outContinue reading “Call me crazy if you want…”

Not a point to this…

Sometimes, words flow. Sometimes, they don’t. Sometimes, I don’t get to finish a thought due to time constraints. Sometimes, I get caught up in the editing. Sometimes, I drive even myself crazy with the analyzation of the human psyche. All of this has been the case for me the past two weeks or so. IContinue reading “Not a point to this…”

I just want you to know…

Reaching just under 324 million users in 2021, interest in dating apps has skyrocketed since 2016, according to a quick google search. Despite these numbers, however, another search reports that only half of current singles claim to be looking for a romantic partner. The other half don’t want relationships at all. I look at theseContinue reading “I just want you to know…”

A whole other world…

When my husband passed away from a self-inflicted gunshot wound in 2010, I was not unfamiliar with loss and grief. Yet, for a period of time after his death, I found myself void of compassion for others experiencing their own loss, grief, and trauma. In fact, it was almost two years before I was ableContinue reading “A whole other world…”

A week in the life…

Wednesday, August 31: Clean and organize living space much of the day, followed by a night at the movies with my mother. Third full day home from a visit with friends in Iowa….trying to ignore invading memories from this time last year. Thursday, September 1: My mother and I shop with my daughter for dressesContinue reading “A week in the life…”

I just got here…

It’s been quiet the past few weeks, observationally speaking. I took a trip to Iowa earlier this month to help friends with their business and expected to be haunted by memories and my closer proximity to the source of many feelings and synchronicities over the past year. I wasn’t. Aside from a turn in DesContinue reading “I just got here…”

When I do…

The messages come in quick succession…..my car audio announcing every single one as my phone receives it. I guess my long-time friend, Andy, finally read my blog post about a tree. That’s nice, I think. I’m on a road trip with no time to respond and it’s just as well. We often go long periodsContinue reading “When I do…”

Perhaps another time…

I travel like I’m on cocaine. Not that I have any personal and real experience with drug use, mind you…..but travel is, in itself, like a drug to me. I wake early, run around trying to see and experience everything, and I crash fast and hard at the conclusion of each trip. My use ofContinue reading “Perhaps another time…”