As I have looked forward to writing the past few days, it didn’t actually occur to me to write about past love interests and relationships. However, this is where my mind wandered this morning. Not so much to the people, themselves, but to this idea….that they are not currently a part of my life forContinue reading “Where have all the exes gone?”
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If the sea brings me to it…
(The following was originally written in August 2024, just before a new person entered my life. Reading it now, just over a year later, I am struck by how soon the thing I was seeking here would be realized. It’s a reminder that what you think may become.) Returning from this year’s trip to Spain,Continue reading “If the sea brings me to it…”
I may never know…
My husband passed away over 14 years ago, yet it is the death of something else around three years ago that still has me in strange territory as I write this. Oddly enough, it isn’t some sort of co-dependent obsession, infatuation, unhealthy pattern, desire or anything of the like that’s brought me here. As farContinue reading “I may never know…”
Show me what you’ve got…
Not many weeks ago, I found myself writing about the classic Frankenstein film from the 1930s in one of the chapters of the book I’m working on. In this chapter, I express my early empathy for monsters and outsiders, never thinking I would soon resemble a mad scientist’s creation. Yet, today, this is more orContinue reading “Show me what you’ve got…”
The most beautiful gift…
Cancer is a scary word. Although skin cancer can be less scary, the word melanoma isn’t something anyone wants to hear. Melanoma is the most life threatening of the skin cancers, spreading to lymph nodes and internal organs in as fast as a few weeks. Yesterday, I found out that I have melanoma….on my neck.Continue reading “The most beautiful gift…”
When we both get there…
Cultivating trust. I used to be so good at it. Yet, at some point, I subconsciously learned that it can lead a person right into years of abuse. When one person has a high level of trust and loyalty, it makes sense to attempt to resolve the fears of someone who doesn’t. However, what happensContinue reading “When we both get there…”
One foot in another…
It’s a new year and this seems to bring new emotions, habits, and behaviors to the forefront in the days and lives of many individuals. Some welcome the passing of time and chance to start anew with open arms. Maybe 2022 was a rough year and this one will be better. Or maybe…..another year meansContinue reading “One foot in another…”
The beauty I see…
Sitting in a warm coffee shop, snow flakes descending in white fury outside a nearby window, and I’m thinking it may be time to re-emerge from my brief writing hiatus. The past few weeks have been, in part, about moving on…..but also about returning. The return, in fact, has been both literal and figurative….returning toContinue reading “The beauty I see…”
This is why I’m afraid…
Just want to take a minute to thank everyone who has followed my posts and to let you all know that I’m going to be taking a break. I am unsure for how long. As some of you may be aware, I have struggled to let go these past months. I have attempted to turnContinue reading “This is why I’m afraid…”
Maybe you…
Projects…..I’ve been happily buried in them since my hiatus from my seasonal job commenced mid-April. I did, however, take a week to vacation in Key Largo with my mother at the end of the month. A wonderful and meaningful time spent…..although, I do believe we were driving each other a bit crazy the last dayContinue reading “Maybe you…”
Maybe I can be surprised again…
Like many people just trying to find their way, I make choices that sometimes don’t make a lot of sense to others…..and sometimes, I’m not the best person or as “perfect” as people think. Perhaps I tried to be too “mature” and emotionally well-adjusted at an early age…..seeing how trust encourages trust…..wanting to treat peopleContinue reading “Maybe I can be surprised again…”
Only love has value here…
For months now, I’ve been sitting on some thoughts about which path to take moving forward. I haven’t been stagnant, exactly. I’ve just been taking in “data” as needed in the understanding that it will eventually lead me to some sort of conclusion about the matter. Such is my way. I’m an observer, first…..of externalContinue reading “Only love has value here…”
Not the writer here…
After a few months hiatus, I feel like sharing some of what I’ve been going through in my little world. For starters, I visited a friend in North Carolina the month of November, which did not end well…..and finally led to me completely cutting ties with her after returning to Illinois. I believe the badContinue reading “Not the writer here…”
You may think…
You may think I’m the same as all of the others….. But I’m not…..because you’re not, and I recognized you in a moment. And although I was initially reluctant, I gave in. I surrendered. The first night. The second and third. After months of not knowing what was to come…..when the realization first struck. IContinue reading “You may think…”
I want to be…
I want to be your favorite book. I want you to run your fingers and hands over my pages, memorizing every line…..and while other people will never take the time to read me, I want you to never put me on a shelf where I can collect dust. I’m a first edition, first printing, andContinue reading “I want to be…”
Jeanie Unbottled 